Self Assessment and Professional Goals


My Personal Attributes

              I believe I have a variety of attributes that would contribute to me being a successful music teacher, both from the musical standpoint, and from the teacher standpoint. Musically, at this very moment, I am decently proficient in viola pedagogy, seeing as I’ve been playing for around nine years, nd have an extensive knowledge of how the other string instruments are played due to being around them and experimenting with them throughout my school music career. I assume once having taken string tech at IU, those skills will improve exponentially. Additionally, I’ve always been a very strong sight reader. I learn very quickly, so once I have the absolute basics of concepts understood, I can typically run pretty far with them. This has translated nicely into my sight reading abilities. For the most part, I can sight read most complex passages, and while in high school, there were very few instances I couldn’t read our high school level literature without 100% accuracy. Also, in high school, I took the IB HL Music course and received a 6 on the exam. This course is sort of an introductory class to collegiate musicology and music history and context, so while I wouldn’t say I’m an expert, I do have a general idea of what was going on musically in different locations and time periods throughout music history, and I can apply this general knowledge to my music in terms of how I style and execute it.
              Clearly just the musical aspects of my ability do not necessarily correlate with being a good teacher. There are many aspects of teaching outside of music that are incredibly important. I may not have all of them on lock, but I believe I possess a fair amount of qualities that contribute to good teaching. First, I am incredibly self-reflective. I am constantly assessing whether or not what I am doing is being done in the most ideal way. This is incredibly useful, but also a bit of a curse because I am constantly unsure of whether or not ive made the right choice, which leads to some confidence issues, but ultimately the pros of this characteristic outweigh the cons. Being self-reflective is an incredibly important teaching tool. There is no perfect way to teach because no student is the same. It is important to be self-aware of how you treat every single student and adjusting the way you teach to fit each unique circumstance. Guidelines can only get you so far. Second, I consider myself to be fairly patient. I think patience is one of the most important qualities to have as a teacher. You need to be able to work through something with a student until they understand, no matter how long it takes. Having that patience for a student or for a class in general shows the students that you are with them through each step as a supporter, as opposed to someone who is frustrated with them. Patience goes hand in hand with self-reflection because sometimes if something is not working, you need to regroup and try another method of getting the information across. For example, one of my former private violin students was never the strongest rhythm reader, so when it came to learning dotted rhythms, it was an uphill battle. However, week after week, we worked through them. We played clapping and counting games, we subdivided out loud, we wrote out subdivisions underneath our notes, we counted the subdivisions out loud while we played, and many other things, until finally, I sang her the muffin man song, which has dotted rhythms all over the place. Once she heard the rhythm in a song she was familiar with, she was able to internalize the subdivision and play the rhythm perfectly. The bottom line of that anecdote is that I had patience for her week after week. I taught her dotted rhythms every possible way I could think of with a smile on my face, because the second you start to show frustration, the student gest discouraged, and their improvement will be stunted. Patience is of the utmost importance. Beyond those two big skills, I am also a very well organized person, and have very good balance within my life. I also like to believe I keep things funny(ish) and lighthearted while I teach.

Professional development plan

              I think the biggest issue I have that needs working on is my comfort in front of a classroom. I don’t ever really get nervous being in front of a classroom, I am just incredibly in my head. I am constantly concerned that students are judging every move I make, so even though I am confident in what I am doing, I am never comfortable enough to really come out of my shell in front of groups of people. I also struggle with eye contact, because for me, it feels very vulnerable to make eye contact with another person. I have always had this use, but now as a teacher it has become way more apparent as something that needs to be dealt with. Eye contact is an important means of communication between a conductor and their orchestra.
              Accomplishing feeling more comfortable can be improved upon by just pushing myself into more social, or public situations, and just allowing myself to own it a bit. I know that my discomfort is all in my head, so I think if pretend to be confident, my brain will eventually think it’s the real thing. This has already worked numbers on my social confidence, because just a few years ago I was practically mute in front of anyone who I wasn’t extremely close with. Now, I am able to make easy conversation with anyone, so I think it’s fair to say I’ve made a lot of progress. Now I just need to bridge that gap over to music. I think being in a real classroom with real students will make a world of a difference because in class, I know I’m being judged by my peers and professors while teaching, and while teaching private lessons, you are constantly aware of the fact that there is a nosy parent in the other room on standby to make sure they’re getting what they paid for. I think when I stop having to prove my ability to teach to others, I will become much more comfortable.
`            In regards to the eye contact issue, Ive been working on a variety of different methods to lessen the awkwardness it holds for me. The first is simply to make more of an effort to make eye contact with people while I speak to them. It’s like exposure therapy: I hate making eye contact, but If I force myself to do it, eventually I’ll be more comfortable. My second method of handling this is allowing myself to believe that vulnerability is ok. Eye contact to me feels very soul searching and intimate, and I hate feeling like that most of the time. Ive been working on opening up both to myself and to others about how I’m really feeling about things. Allowing myself to be open and vulnerable has helped a bit over the years, but is definitely still a work in progress.
              I would say in general, my goals are much geared towards personal comfort with myself and with others. It has been a life-long process, and I anticipate it continuing to be, but the more I work on it, the more manageable it gets.



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